Having a baby is such a blessing. Being able to watch your little one learn and grow into an amazing human being just brings so much joy into your life it’s crazy. I can honestly say that I am so happy to be welcoming our baby #2 into this world, but if I’m being honest it took A minute to get to this point. Alot of people are ashamed to talk about this but I just wanted to share my experience so far.
Most people talk about all the good parts of being pregnant but don’t really share the bad. For me this pregnancy wasn’t easy at first, I had extreme nauseous, I could not eat or drink anything for almost a month. I had some bleeding at the beginning of my pregnancy, lost 22 pounds in two weeks and was in and out of the hospital on IV drips and sleeping medicine. When your own doctors are scared for your health it’s really hard to be excited about being pregnant, and honestly I had my moments when I didn’t think I’d get through it myself. The depression kicked in really hard at times and I would spend my days in bed and crying to my friends and family who where there for me. But I didn’t want to give up even though the conversations where brought up by those who where scared for me. I knew it was all out of love, I mean I thought about it myself. And I know I’m not the only one who goes through this. There are plenty of women out there going through the same thing or worse and it’s very hard to talk about when you see so many others having an amazing time throughout there pregnancy. And that is why I wanted to share my experience now. Because besides trusting that God would help me through it, having that support system around and being able to talk about how I was feeling without being judged is the only thing that kept me going on those days when I couldn’t even get off the floor or take a shower without almost passing out.
I am around 26 weeks now and I am so happy I stuck through it. With the help of my doctors and the right medications I’ve been doing so much better. Ive been gaining weight, eating again, and even able to take my first born out around town again and I really could not have done it without those special people who where there for me, especially my significant other. Things most definitely are not perfect. I still have those lower back pains, crazy dreams, nause, and it seems like every other thing that comes along with pregnancy but I can honestly say that I am excited to see my little one when he or she is born. Everything I went through will be worth it the day my little one is here. I know this wasnt the most happy blog post but I just wanted to encourage those who felt or still feel the same way I did and remind you that it doesn’t make you a bad mom to have those feelings. You’re not the only one who feels that way. But as a mother of one already I can say it’s all worth it to see the little smiles, or receive the little hugs. Just keep pushing on one day at a time. You‘re not alone 💜
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